Live Like You're Dying

Living in a temptable space.

2011-06-21T03:58:00.000-07:00

When is the time for self-reflection?

Not after a storm comes rumbling in

Not only once in a lifetime

It is now and not after any other time.

It is when one bears in mind that

day by day, we are all dying,

as life can be so short and uncertain,

Dear worldlings,

To find goodness is first to find goodness within thyself

so that evil loses its power to destruct thyself and ultimately other selves.

TO DO GOOD IS AN UPHILL TASK

Easy to do things that are bad

and not beneficial to self

but very, very hard to do indeed

is that which is beneficial and good.

(Dh: 163)

COMPASSION MUST COME WITH WISDOM

The man of little learning (ignorant) grows like a bull:

his flesh grows, but not his wisdom.

Grow up, don't just grow old.

Dhammapada 152

As life is dear to all,

All tremble at the rod, feeling for others as for oneself,

All fear death: One should neither harm nor cause to harm.

Dh: 129

SELFISH LOVE IS THE CAUSE OF ALL OUR PROBLEMS

Sorrow and mourning in the world,

or suffering of every sort,

Happen because of one's selfish love,

but happen not because there is none,

Happy are they and sorrowless,

that have no selfish love in the world,

Who seeks the sorrowless dispassion,

Should have no selfish love in this world.

(Ud. 92)

IDLENESS RUINS LIFE

A young and strong person

Who does not strive

When he should strive

Who is given to idleness

Who is loose in his purpose and thoughts

And who is lazy

That idler never finds the way to wisdom.

(Dh. 155)

ANGER IS UGLY

How ugly is the angry man,

his sleep is without comfort;

Despite his wealth he is always poor,

Filled by anger as he is,

He wounds by acts of body and speech.

(A. IV. 96)

BE CALM IN PRAISE OR BLAME

As a solid rock is not shaken by the wind,

Even so the wise are not ruffled by praise or blame.

(Dh. 81)

With metta,

Michelle Tan :)

Time & Space

2010-12-05T17:45:00.000-08:00

How do we really know when one's smile is genuine, accompanied by a feeling of content?

It comes from within the self, the mind. The true reason to joy does not come mainly from what we see, hear, taste and feel. What is life? Ever wondered what in the world am I doing on Earth? Most people think life is all about achieving goals, being successful, getting married, enjoyment, having assets and etc. So, is life just about growing old, being successful in career, getting married, being rich, enjoy retirement and then die? We would come across these things in life but is that enough? Are all these things going to fulfill our function as humans? Deep inside, we all want to make good use of life, this ever sublime gift, being alive itself is the best contentment one could ever gain. We're given an intelligent mind which is easily attainable but one whose life that is rightly & well-lived is the wise mind; the greatest treasure throughout life's journey. Wisdom is an everyday process.

"Learn as if you'll live forever and Live as if you're gonna die tomorrow" This indeed is the true purpose of life. Allowing life just to unfold by itself.

EVERYTHING COMES AND GOES AWAY

Time is kind enough to us. It gives us the Present Moment. It opens up chances for us to value it as much as we could. Most of us always ask in the mind "What if this happens? What if I lose this? What if ...Why must this happen to me? I don't deserve this...etc" All these are making us NOT living in the present moment. Although we are in the moment but the mind is not. Everything tends to shift towards the fear of the future or the remorse of the past. Well yeah these are inevitable but we can train our minds to learn and understand the impermanence of life. Welcome every single up and down agendas in life. Good or bad, right or wrong. Both are very fine values in life. Be like a monk who can even smile in darkness. This is a skill to be attained. Same goes to happiness.. It's a skill that your mind is capable of. Discover this sublime gift of life and if this is the only one thing we know of, life itself and being alive itself is more than enough, more than perfect. With gratitude & contentment alone, life can become fulfilling. First, ignorance must be less and awareness to the world must grow.

Yes we age but that's not it. "GROW UP, NOT JUST GROW OLD"

If you put hand prints on the sand, it will fade away by the wind. If you have every material thing in the world, they surely wouldn't last for long. When we have access to a comfortable life, we should always be more than grateful. If we are rich but still complain for more or dissatisfied with the things we have, what is the point anyway? So, rich or poor, healthy or unhealthy, old or young, just take them in. Embrace them. Appreciate all we have regardless of good or bad. If one can do that, life itself becomes a challenge not a problem. The richest man in this world does not mean that he is the happiest man in the world though. Plus, the richest man is the most generous one while the poorest man is the most stingy one. Give more than we receive. If life is all about giving with unconditional positive regard, worries become less as we do not hold on to expectations. When we love, we love unconditionally.. for the people around us, the world.. so by giving our love outside, it is the way we loves ourselves. Most people become upset with their lives because they always expect to receive but never likely to give. Then, life for them becomes unstable, overwhelmed by drastic emotions. Why? because life's not perfect. We don't always get what we want and of course in logical sense, expecting others to please us makes life very worrisome. Some people may please us but when they don't tend to please us anymore, we would be overwhelmed by negative emotions. Again, life becomes unstable. Stability in life comes from being independent of the mind itself, the ultimate and the only mirror to life. Become the Niccolo Machiavelli of your lives. You paint your own view of life. Everything is so abstract and that is why discovering life's beauty is literary. It's not fun but it gives joy and serenity.

Embracing Change.

Life events are definitely unstable but the mind's stability can make one perceive change as welcoming and fulfilling. Why? Because lessons are learnt. Lessons are most learnt from change. Through this, it is the process of attaining wisdom. As Socrates mentioned, wisdom or the perfection of the soul is unattainable but it doesn't mean that trying to attain it is meaningless. Instead, it is the best thing a man can do in his life. Yes, I totally agree to that. Until we die, or at the brink of death, when we would ponder how great our life was, we wouldn't take it as greatness but as something more than grateful. Death is not something to fear of when one has lived his life with meaning and gratitude. :)

Life is like the movies. One moment passes by and another one comes.. Life is an illusion, a dream. Not literally but well, metaphorically. Why do people have to open their eyes so widely at all the things in life when we know that death will haunt them one day? In simple terms, it means that we tend to get so overwhelmed with the material things and enjoyment in this world but when we die, we have to leave them behind. Cravings for things in life lead to pointlessness and sufferings at the end of the day. Time is precious as we know so when we crave hard for something, a period of time in our lives is just thrown into the sea. Time never stops and we cannot get time back, no extra time. Most people lead their lives like they are not going to die one day so life for them becomes, one that is blind. We do not know when we will die. Hence again, "Learn as if you'll live forever and Live as if you're gonna die tomorrow".

If we are going through goodness in life now, it's something more than one could get. Appreciate what has come to our lives at the moment because we know it will be gone soon. It becomes a blessing. When we are experiencing difficulties, we know that it's not the end. During the process, it's a blessing too. It's one blessing in disguise. What we ought to do is to see through the darkness in search for light, that is hope. ;) Each day, we learn, we have a chance to be mentally stronger, we take chances, we become wiser, we move forward, we take the past as goodness for the present and future, we live basically a simple life. Simplicity is contentment. Contentment then comes to happiness. Life is the game of the body, mind and soul. Nothing is specific and certain. But everything is best done through the middle way. Mediation is when the wise mind works.

All the best in life.

Remember to stand up when you fall.

When you fall, you choose to stand or continue falling.

It may be hard to stand right away but there is no rush.

At least you know you have to and want to stand up is worth it.

But always keep up with it, turning back halfway because you may find it hard is not a good reason.

Keep holding on, keep up with the optimism.

With metta,

Michelle Tan :)

Gratitude shapes contentment

2010-07-06T08:45:00.001-07:00

We're born into this world, given one lifetime.

We decide our lives, lead them and face the music.

Until death we often ponder the meaning behind this lifetime.

Why are we here?

What are we to do on Earth?

It all depends on every individual to think about their lives' purposes.

It's time to look within, the pure heart and mind are the book of life.

Life is not meant for us to just enjoy.

The world provides us to feel true happiness & peace because enjoyment is pleasure.

Pleasure is impermanent and fluctuating.

Happiness is permanent, silent and abstract.

It is not caught by sight.

You eat an ice-cream, you feel pleasure, not happiness

It does not come and go like waves.

It stays in heart & mind, within each one of us, felt not sighted by oneself.

Life itself is not complex. It's just people who complicate it.

When bad times come, they are just bad moments we choose to come in.

What do we do then?

Life is not merely waiting for the storm to pass.

It's about learning to dance in the rain.

Never avoid or fear misfortunes, face them gladly.

Later, we'll realise that the value of every misfortune will appear to be priceless.

What we get is experience when we don't get something we would honourably accept

Let us rise up and be thankful,

For if we didn't learn a lot today,

At least we learned a little,

And if we didn't learn a little,

At least we didn't get sick,

And if we got sick,

At least we didn't die,

So let us all be thankful.

-Buddha-

Life is like a road.

Do we just walk it through until the end?

Walking with no meaning is indeed meaningless.

Why just walk straight blindly until the end destination?

Keep in mind,

Life is a journey, not a destination.

Open up the heart & mind when walking the road of life.

The rocks of danger provide a chance for wisdom.

Living a life without knowing where your feet are taking you creates uncertainty

Expecting the others to handle your feet,

Hate/blame the surroundings when things go wrong,

We should all stand on our feet, create our own world for the good of others and ourselves.

Peace requires a simple life.

Simple as in free from worries.

Worry worry worry...

It makes the present moment non-existent and wasteful.

The future never comes when one never stop worrying.

The material world can drown us into a lot of delusions, addiction, uncertainty, fear and depression mostly. All are linked.

The unreal world has become reality now.

Understanding that gain in material or status is not most important after all.

They are impermanent.

Craving and prioritizing them in life will increase our sense of self (selfishness)

Everything revolves around I, I, I, me, me, me, mine, mine, mine..

Diminish the sense of self, prevent from being self-centered in every way.

Geared up for an awakening life?

Yes, leave unreality and explore the world's beautiful mystery.

Alive here on earth is more than enough than anything you'd want.

Gratitude for being alive.

Gratitude for everything in this world,

Gratitude for whatever that comes,

Gratitude to have learned so much in this realm.

Thank you

Much love for everyone and everything in this world <3

Life's beautifully wondrous.

Exploring the invisible and admiring at how all abstracts work have been a great world.

With metta :)

Time slows down

2010-07-01T06:42:00.000-07:00

Here are a few beautiful pictures of nature taken in New South Wales.

The water flow reminds me of time.

Time does not fade, freeze, stop and replay.

As it flows down, its motion is forever continuous

And if you were to put a leaf on the surface,

It follows the flow without knowing where it's heading to,

Thinking that there's no end?

Time is endless but life is short,

Some presume that they have all the time in the world;

Thus, 'Neglecting the appreciation of life's beauty'

Every moment just fades away till death?

Find meaning in every tic

It's for us to find out.

Find the purpose of life.

Don't wait till you reach the 50s while proclaiming life is with less meaning.

Is life about looking and experiencing beautiful things?

Partially but NO because ... what about the least favourable ones? i.e. Not good/unhealthy/disturbing

This world is originally created with beauty

It's just that people make it complicated hence finding it difficult to be at peace

Feel that every move you take makes a difference, change and mostly allows you to feel thankful

Be glad to experience all sorts of unusually intriguing thoughts;

Wisdom, the key to success

Nature versus man-made

It feels amazing to get in touch with nature

Always find light and you will shine

Life can sometimes be difficult but you can make it easy

Look around and within yourself

Know who you are

Get on and pursue it

Every human being has the capacity for evil but

Each of us are born innocent, naturally good

It's the environment that affects us

That's why being STRONG and WISE give great importance to everyone

It's all the mental job that counts

Train your mind in every way

You find life a mess because your mind is a mess

Black or white, good or bad, up or down,

It's safe when you have a peace of mind

Can you imagine those colours of the sky?

Ah, beautiful isn't it?

This world is meant for us to explore

It's beauty is just more than words

Feel lucky to be born into this world

Appreciate this lifetime

We're grateful enough to be alive ;)

Being the painter of life

2010-05-30T04:09:00.000-07:00

We see a blossomed flower as beautiful

But it doesn't last long for it wilts with passing days

Beauty is gone

Is that the end?

Is there anymore hope when it dies off?

There isn't only one flower in this world

One dies, another different one grows

Life events come and go like see waves

If our mind is like the wide ocean;

despite strong waves,

its depth underneath still undisturbed

Regardless of the mad world we live in

We see the world as a

beautiful and pleasant place to live in

because we don't let the world revolve around us,

we control our mind to shape the world we live in

In the picture above, it could be a flower or a butterfly.

Yet, it looks the same.

"Open your arms to change but don't give up your values"

Change always occurs in life

Change is by renewing thoughts

Having to produce so many thoughts that are ever-changing,

We let them go

But sometimes we hold onto some of them

Those in the end, shape our character

Those that become strong in our mind

CHANGE

In the end, it is the values you will get

"When you realise you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it"

The World you want is in your hands.

That's the truth.

No matter how awful you fall one day,

you'll learn how to get up

The end is always a new beginning

The World everyone wants;

Peace, love and happiness

To get there, we somehow have to find light in the darkness we're in

and to avoid going into the dark hole when we embrace light

COMPASSION

Love everything you see, feel and encounter

Welcome your problems

Deal with them with love

Love them and they'll be easy for you

Meaning, not getting negatively overwhelmed by them will ensure a stable flow.

Love the people who relate to your problems because

They are the ones who make you stronger

Be thankful instead

Through all sorts of ordeal, there's an open door

It's your will to "see the shine behind every dark cloud"

Again,

COMPASSION FOR YOURSELF & OTHERS

It's all within you. Find it and you will know it.

Buddha quotes

"There is only two mistakes one can make along the road to truth;

not going all the way and not starting"

Self-consciousness

2010-04-26T03:16:00.000-07:00

Thoughts can be vicious because they cloud your mind and then leaving you to let that unaware mind control your life.

Worrisome, uncertainty, fear and insecurity all come from mere thoughts.

Thoughts are just thoughts.

The twist is that they have to ability to be attached to your vulnerable mind and later, becomes you; your "identity". Truth is, that's not who you really are but only what you are.

What you think, you become. Your life's a reflection on everything on your mind; thoughts.

So you can't change your life if you don't change your mind. You are the start of all changes.

Can't stop thinking so much? It's alright to have thoughts but make sure they pass away after a while; not holding onto the mind anymore because thoughts might cause you to dwell into unnecessary emotions. Negative ones are like pollutants to your true being.

Sometimes, you don't know when your mind is out of control (unconscious) until it's finally in peace (conscious). Remorse for instance, is a type of unconscious to conscious thinking. Want to live life without regrets? You can live a happy and peaceful one if you first understand that by 'reorganizing' your thoughts, then 'purifying' your mind and finally 'strengthening' your inner-being. Free from clinging onto negative thoughts & emotions and welcoming positive ones. The more negative something is, the tougher it is to attain positivity. The more positivity someone has, the tougher it is to be drowned into negativity.

Thoughts are inevitable. Pretty sure we all have numerous thoughts on people, our own life, ourselves and the world today. Just take an example that someone out there is now feeling dissatisfied on how people are or how they affect him. Thus, leaving a conclusion that life's not treating him well and is always unfair. His thoughts are causing a whole bunch of unnecessary negative emotions. He's greatly attached to the worldly surroundings; people and things. If he were to change his thoughts, the body, mind and soul would be unshaken by all the unexpected worldly surroundings, not easily affected.

Like the days, they come and go. Everything is impermanent.

Thoughts come and go too but some of you might have been holding on to some thoughts relating to your past life events. Knowing that you still have to let them go and move on having new thoughts like how days work, your mind doesn't dwell in the past.

Patience is always worth the effort because time is never too late as long as you're still alive.

However, NOW is the time to clarify and some adjustments in your current life

if you just want to feel peace & happiness, nothing else.

Feel gratitude as your place on Earth is an ultimate gift.

Won't you feel extreme gladness when every step you take in life is worth doing?

Think of anyone in hot soup. Do what you can for his/her good.

If you're the one's in hot soup, do something for yourself. Help yourself. Pick yourself up.

Anything positive is worth doing. :)

Reshape your thoughts like clay.

Have a nice day peeps!

With metta, :) :)

Life is nothing without love

2010-04-07T22:41:00.000-07:00

World peace is the basis of how great our lives are now

Yes, be thankful.

Some parts of the world might not be in peace yet but let's us hope for a better world

A place where everyone lives as ONE

We should all say, act and do things that will not harm ourselves and the others physically, and emotionally.

So, what is LOVE?

It's not romantic love I'm talking about

It's ..Compassion, selflessness, care for every living thing on earth

No hatred amongst all

No judgements

No discrimination

Lastly, No violence

When you're in Love with yourself, you will love every moment in your life

Your days are not wasted, life doesn't suck anymore

People will see through your warmth and take it for themselves

Loving yourself is not an ego subject

Because love isn't ego, it's something unselfish

When you have a friend who takes trouble as a foe,

tell them it's your friend

It will follow you everywhere you go.

All he/she needs is your love

If you love them, do what you can do to improve the stitches

Eventually, you'll feel a sense of relief & peace when you see someone turning over a new leaf

Love your enemy

Love everyone on earth

"Believe in love - It's supreme"

Trust life, trust yourself, take your time, love is patience

Romantic love rhymes the same too

It takes a lot of patience

True love comes with fate

not forced, not pushed, not touched

it's FELT, embraced

Unrequited love is bias yet the feeling hurts more than it's not suppose to

If you long for true love, let it come to you

Don't go seeking for a mate to love

Open your heart :D

Let it flow. You will know what I mean

2010-03-30T06:38:00.000-07:00

Sometimes it's funny when you start to smile right after weeping

Tears of joy? Not really.

It's tears of gratitude I'd say

I'm thankful to live with what I have now

Even if I'm "far out of the sea" or "close in the summer daylight"

I'll learn what I don't know

I'll explore the impossible

I'll live in the moment

I want to appreciate every little bittersweet thing

Maybe this place is the right choice

As I've never laughed so much before

Nevertheless, I'm still the same

I still miss what's not here

Friends pass away:that's true

Memories don't

Well, I understand the impermanence of life

"We were best friends and we're not anymore"

"We were lovers and we're not anymore"

Yes, I understand clearly.

I wept but started to smile later on

When things don't go your way, just accept it

It's how you accept life

If you accept joy, you have to accept sorrow

If you pass this hurdle, you'll be wiser and stronger

Remember, the more you tremble, the less you crumble

"Away they have gone

to a far land

no longer to come again

never to hold my hand

all that now remains

are lovely unwashed memories

which are like footprints on sand"

HERE and NOW

Everything is different

It's funny when I try to think about it

My senses have changed

My perceptions

My goals

My instincts

My lovely friends

I don't have the same friends anymore

Friendships don't last but it's possible to last long

Depends on how much you value friendship

Payback

2010-03-10T22:22:00.001-08:00

Freezing your smile

After you walked a mile

Carried rocks till now

Thought came across in a while

Ringing, vibrating like a crowd

Forming new vision of art

Predicted the dart to be sharp

Amateur finds the heart

Then expectations grew from guts

Tough ground became soft

Bound to be lost

As you are your boss

Track on the source

Tougher, ready for shots

With the ground or not

Life not like God

It's a funny cloud

The poem above is about how I feel about my results..

MY SPM RESULTS:

ENG: A+
BM: A-
MATHS: A-
SEJ:A-
CHEM: A-
BIO: B+
PHY: B+
ADD MATHS: B+
EST: B+
MORAL: B+

Conclusion: I feel contented although my expectations contradict the results.

LIFE LESSONS

Life expectations are not guaranteed
Move on, don't cry over spilt milk
Find your inner strength
Take your weaknesses as your strength for now
Start anew
Plan your life
Dare to dream
Encompass positivity
Reach for your goals
Life's brief candle so appreciate

Love,

Michelle

Every second counts

2010-03-05T05:46:00.000-08:00

Bad days come and go

Escape is a no

Understand is the goal

If one could fathom the meaning of everyday life

Bad days become challenging

Complaints don't exist

Patience is persisted

When good days come people forget

What bad days teach them

They tend to procastinate

Wake up calls emerge from bad atmosphere

Chances can either be grabbed or flown away

Your choice to lead the way

Your hands to take and keep it

If one is at peace when bad times occur

Life is never remorseful

Nothing is impossible if you believe

Things you do reflect who you are

Who you are makes what you'll become

No matter how well you've become

WHO YOU REALLY ARE is the peak

Living without treachery and deceit erase worries

It's our onus to find our way of peaceful living in order to complete the incomplete

Peace cannot be obtained.

It's just like happiness.

It's already within your soul that hasn't started to flare

Being with only yourself starts the mission

Then slowly, you and The Divine/Universe

This feeling will go far

It doesn't make you feel good nor bad

It's just emptiness/peace/gratitude

From here, happiness is the treasure

The moment is never later

NOW

Be determined for clarity first

Then, you will know what's most important right now

Not about the past but now

Which now gives you your future

NOW NOW NOW

Just do it now

Be positive & courageous

EXPRESS.LAUGH.REMEMBER

Today was fabulously great because I laughed A LOT!

Danced and made noise during "Big Noise" event

Just came back after watching Alice In The Wonderland 3D

Yes, $22. hmm. Shopped a little before that

Clothes here are my food

When it's my birthday I just want clothes for my b'day present :)

Tomorrow, it's the Amazing Race!

Of course I'm EXCITED

Winner gets extra 2 Gigs a month for 3 months (each member in a group)

Group name's elephant. LOL!

We'll do our best!! =)

Time of My Life

2010-02-24T05:00:00.000-08:00

Reach for the sky when you're on the ground

New things teach you great lessons

Mistakes open various opportunities

The only thing that can do it right is your eternal flame

Life never fails, never bad if you look inside

Peace prevailing, Happiness pouring

That's all.

Contented & grateful

The bad past can give you strength in a wise way

The good future relies on your wisdom & courage

Yes, I love life. Not my own life but LIFE!

Sometimes my heart melts

Knowing that I'm being blessed and lucky

After someone put a bomb right in my heart

No one's at fault

Blameless, faultless and fateless

The other way round, I would want to thank the person who bombed my heart

Thank you so much

Without you breaking it, I wouldn't taste life's beauty & gain strength

One of my principles: When something awful happens now, there is always great chances for you to explore for the latter.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you! To the people who have helped me through roadblocks.
Thanks to Lord Buddha for teaching me the way

With metta,

Happy

2010-02-19T16:17:00.000-08:00

I've a feeling that I'll migrate here someday. Oops?

Anyway, Melbourne's nightlife isn't bad at all

Shops aren't closed yet even of it's 9 smthg.

Lygon St is a happening place where restaurants are FULL with people!

Brooom!

Melbourne Uni Sports Centre! Gym gym gym

That's my college! It's 15 mins walk from my place but with my speed, I think it'll be 25 mins!

Checked out the place and guess what?

I feel like I'm in a Harry Potter movie because of the classical buildings.

Below's me in the college compound

My Little brother; Andrew!

Dear parents! Ah, they left to M'sia this morning already. I know, CNY craze is still happening back there! Ugh, I want more ANG POWS!

Let me be Hermione Granger! LOL?

Oops, can't fly. Need a broom..

The 80's?

Trinity Chapel; Red one

Grass is really soft. I'll try sleeping on it someday ;)

Sharwood Room; Did registration here.

Best thing was, I met my drama teacher. His name's Jack =)

He talked so excitedly saying tht drama's going to be FUN FUN FUN. Haha I <3>

Had LAMB this morning! Only finished half of it. If I eat this every week, I'll surely be fat by Dec

At the streets.

Some of my housemates =)

We were gonna watch Shutter. A horror film

Rachel had to accompany me to toilet after the thrills =/

My roomate hadn't checked in yet tht time and I took courage to sleep alone

That table was LOUD! I can't say what they were doing. SHOOSH. Haha

Yea, I left space for my roomate! I'm so good =)

Well for tonight, me and my housemates will play TABOO!

Ugh, maybe another horror film.

Oh roomate's here already. Just arrived this morning. Hehe

=) Albert House

2010-02-18T07:29:00.000-08:00

My room! Sharing with my roomate, Ziyan =)

One of my new friends I made, Rachel Loi!

That's me going online late at night!

Geez, I can only use 1 Gig per month!

3 more Gigs for $20 which is like RM60+

I shall control my internet usage!

Melbourne's so fantastic =)

I really love it here!

I so wanna stay here forever!

Weather's cooling and sunny

I've met new friends,

HOT guys,

Friendly people.

College will be starting on the 22nd of February.

Can't wait for Orientation =) and English test?

Btw, they don't sell bolsters here in Melbourne

I MISS MY BOLSTER!

Yes, I do MISS my loved ones too!

but life moves on :)

LIFE'S AWESOME

& I'm LIVNG it

Trying to get use with the lifestyle here well

Yes, it's 2.52 a.m here and am not sleeping yet

Still following the M'sian time for bedtime. LOL!

Will be checking out my college tomorrow =)

Hmm, anyway the fashion trend here is SO MY TYPE =)

I found cotton on & MNG

But couldn't find Nichii, Forever 21, Kitschen!

However, there are HOT boutiques here; Don't know their names!

OH and spent some time with my housemates!

Went door-knocking! LOL

Had some talks to know each other..

;)

I'll update more soon =) I have to go to bed! Nights!

Freeing the Demon

2010-02-08T09:02:00.000-08:00

Can't sleep? Having a bad time?

Want the pain to stop?

Fall down because you're tired of things?

You alone against the world?

Get HELP if you live in the hole

The way to happiness will get you out of darkness

It's the Power of Now!

CRAWL back up when you crash

It won't be easy but be hopeful!

People around you are KINDNESS

Compassion to the earthlings contributes to your happiness =)

Everyone has the right to be happy =)

Feel like a child!

Realise the beauty of this world

JUMP your way to the sky

Even when it RAINS like cats and dogs, smile like no other

Your strength will accumulate as you can jump higher!

CONNECT with nature.

PEACE is between you and nature.

HAPPINESS is when you're at PEACE

Both are already an existence in you

Find it within you, don't seek outside

You yourself determines your own life

People around you act as helping hands

But you are the leader

Leading your life like how you want it to be

If you're thinking that you'll only be happy if you have this and that,

Your life is going to be unstable because

happiness is in other people's hands?

So if they don't provide you what you want,

You'll break and crumble ?

DON'T & NEVER

Become your own BFF

Everything is in your hands

You're living your own life, not somebody else's life

If you get hurt badly, emotionally or physically,

Then WORK on the CURE and later, PREVENT

TIME is FRIEND

Be patient.

You can only reach out to the others when you help yourself.

Positivity does it all.

Happiness & pleasure contradict each other

2010-01-28T08:58:00.000-08:00

What will you do when you want to get out but you can't?

Which is better, the easier or harder way?

Life's not a bed of roses. It is imperfect and that makes it perfect enough. We tend to bend towards a shortcut than going through a long way when we experience any form of loss; money, career, loved ones, etc. In a way, shortcuts will not get you to the top in life. Morever, they may deteriorate your sanity! Pleasure is temporary while happiness is eternal so if you want to be genuinely happy, interpret its vast difference. Well, pleasure can be an antidote to sadness too but it does not work efficiently because we always crave for more later on and soon, might end up with more troubles. In life, realise that pleasure aligns with pamper without affecting yourself and others to the black side.

Common errors:

"I've been hating how life is treating me!...so,"

Thinking that alcohol will do it well
Thinking that going to clubs can let loose or de-stress yourself
Thinking that drugs like ecstasy completes your doomed life
Thinking that violence/revenge will solve it all
Unconsciously being selfish by manipulating/hurting/affecting the others
Thinking that gaining a whole sum of material things will change your life
Thinking that waiting for something uncertain to happen is a good idea
Thinking that someone/something will make your life wonderful
Thinking that I'm fated to suffer on earth, I give up

STOP & STARE! - Nonsensical right?

What's the right thing to do then?

Just drink water, eat more bananas & chocolates (scientifically proven that this can make you feel joyful)
Don't go to night clubs. A club where you can exercise and do other healthy activities is so much better
Drugs are a NONO. Take vitamins instead! Keep up your health cover
Hatred won't solve anything because it grows. Love your enemy and forgiveness is an open door
Be selfless towards every earthling. The benefit of selfishness is a pile of dead guilt. Do thing that will benefit yourself and the others
Holding on to things regardless of value is of the same value. Take material things as rewards that will be gone when you die.
Don't wait for something to happen. Money doesn't rain down from the sky everyday. WORK on it, CHANGE. Make it certain if it's uncertain
You're not a toy to anyone out there because you control your own life.Only you can make yourself feel the best out of life. If someone were to do that, treat that as kindness
You're here on earth because you're lucky. Lucky to have lived on this beautiful planet where there are so many things to be explored. Live the right way and you'll know how lucky you are to be here!

Stuck? Don't!

2010-01-20T07:00:00.000-08:00

“Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.” - Dalai Lama

Feeling troubled?

Lost? Confused?

Depressed?Lifeless?Hopeless?Weak?

Don't worry! It's not the end yet :)

Never give up & hang in there!

Make a change, not forgetting your values. Happiness is not something ready made, it comes from your own actions.

How you feel is important; gratitude, peace, happiness.

Every moment is a chance to do something great. Why not fly?

Treasure your loved ones. Be selfless, put smiles on their faces!

Happiness is shared & its radioactivity will never stop!

For yourself & others,

For the world that you live in,

For the reason why you're born

With metta,

Back and since then

2010-01-16T20:46:00.000-08:00

My Heart & Mind,

Blue birds without wings,

Silent without fear

I saw a monk smiling,

When Sun meets moon in the morning,

Like a submarine trying hard to float,

I saw pink but embraced blue

It was real and priceless,

Yet so vulnerable,

Aligned a smile with a teardrop,

Beautiful and hurtful

Rare but worthless,

For it went to waste,

That hidden treasure,

Not sighted nor felt,

So deep,

For it went to waste

Fate chose deadlocks,

The dying rose finally arose,

Dust became glitter,

Words to Melodies,

Needless to memorise,

What wasted,

The blooming rose never stops,

Dancing and singing,

Even when Sun meets moon

The Road Not Taken

2010-01-08T21:20:00.000-08:00

You see things; and you say "Why?" But I dream things that never were; and I say "Why not?"

Every living being is given a gift. Used, misused, untouched, dimmed or enlightened, it depends. It's a gift to expand with wisdom regardless of life mystifying mysteries. There's a soul burning in you now while you're alive and its flame changes from time to time. When it's dim, light it up. What makes the inferno? Not magic nor miracle. It's you, yourself. The world is so big and you're like a microtiny thing so why not fly and reach out as far as you want? The destination is not the main point but, the process of everything you catch and let go in life. Whether you may achieve it or not, what matters most is the memorable yet meaningful experience you've never thought would embrace you. That makes your soul spark for another gain or the other dream. Dreams are exciting but with a wise heart, they're struck through the realms of reality. Great things are always the invisible around you. Even the greatest treasure lies inside you. Find it and don't just stare at it.

My Cup Of Tea; Picked by fate

Your presence is a present to the world

You are unique and one of a kind

Your life can be what you want it to be

Take the days just one at a time

Count your blessings, not your troubles

You will make it through whatever comes along

Within you are so many answers

Understand, have courage, be strong

Do not put limits on yourself

So many dreams are waiting to be realized

Decisions are too important to leave to chance

Reach for your peak, your goal and you prize.

Nothing wastes more energy than worrying

The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets

Do not take things too seriously

Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.

Remember that a little love goes a long way

Remember that a lot … goes forever

Remember that friendship is a wise investment

Life’s treasure are people together.

Realize that it is never too late

Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way

Have hearth and hope and happiness

Take the time to wish upon a start.

AND DO NOT EVER FORGET ….FOR EVEN A DAY HOW VERY SPECIAL YOU ARE !

Looking Up To Her

2010-01-03T05:56:00.000-08:00

Her album, Fearless has won platinum. Not only because of her melodious songs but, her truely warm lyrics. Joe Jonas had shot her in her heart so this is what gets now; Self-success! She's been strong, independant , herself and a believer. Prince charming's on his way to her as she believes in true love and fairytales. Through her songs, I gained confidence by telling myself that she would've had similar thoughts, feelings and beliefs as mine. Most of her works are about boys including Joe who broke up with her unreasonably. It became the first source of healing for me. Plus, I look up to her a lot. Her attitude, energy and style are creative and inspiring. She's just like any other girl out there living her own dream. Indirectly, she might be playing a part of changing the world by inspiring girls who fall in love, go out of love, never been in love or have a broken love.

True healing;compiled by me

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you

You're gonna believe them

And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall

I've found time can heal almost anything

And you just might find who you're supposed to be

I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen

Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest?

That made you run and hide like a scared little boy?

I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute

Now I'm not so sure

So here's to everything, coming down to nothing

Here's to silence that cuts me to the core

Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute

But I don't anymore

I'm sick and tired of your reasons

I've got no one to believe in

You asked me for my love then you push me around

Here's to you and your temper

Yes, I remember what you said last night

And I know that you see what you're doing to me

Tell me why

You don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby

Like I did before

You're not sorry

Looking so innocent I might believe you if I didn't know

Could've loved you all my life

If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you've got your share of secrets

And i'm tired of the last to know

And now you're asking me to listen

'Cause it's worked each time before

You used to shine so bright

But I watched all of it fade

Holding on and days drag on

Stupid girl, I should've known, I should've known

That I'm not your princess

This ain't a fairytale

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,

Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

'Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairtytale

I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well

This is a big world, that was a small town

There in my rearview mirror disappearing now

Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes

And never really had a chance

When all you wanted is to be wanted

Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday

But I realized some bigger dreams of mine

But I didn't know it at fifteen.

The End Is A New Beginning

2009-12-31T22:26:00.000-08:00

Everyone, Happy New Year! What's passed is past so don't live in it. The past doesn't enrich our future; The present is dependant to it. Take it as life lessons to mould a better well-being. What's imperative is a Mindful New Year meaning not every year can be necessarily a happy one, but even an unhappy one can be a mindful one. Life's completely imcomplete and perfectly imperfect so when things don't turn out the way we want, never lose yourself into blackhole! There's only one challenge in life; Embrace this inevitable, unstoppable stream of life and to flow with it rather than to swim against it because everything is impermanent. People change, lives change, things change. Even the world changes but its beauty never did and will never change. Go to the core and we'll be amazed. We're only living in a tiny part of the world and we might not be convinced that this world is indeed beautiful. Conceptually, our minds function similarly; We might be in hot soup or having a bad life chapter and hastily coming up with a conclusion that life's treating us badly or the world is evil! Yes, human nature is frail but everything has solutions. Well, think like this. The mind is like the ocean and the depressants/troubles are just puddles of water so why narrow down to unfavourable negativity? Put more positive charges and golden wisdom in you in spite of encountering fear, detriment and suffering. Then, light will creep in and dark will fear you. =) Life's not just what you see, hear, taste, smell and feel. It's beyond, existing transparently.